I was recently skimming over Nancy Leigh DeMoss's list 41 evidences of pride. I had posted a link to this before, but recently a friend posted it again....and it is a good list to look over from time to time. It reminds us that we are all sinners, and that pride creeps in unseen at times. It isn't an easy list to read.
One other blogger had mentioned that sometimes we tend to make ourselves sound much better than we are. By that, I mean we portray an image of ourselves online that isn't true to what we are really like. I began to wonder about that. Sometimes I read blogs of others and I think: Man! They really have it all together!!! Then the oddest thing happened. I had several people make comments to me about how "together" I am. I simply stared a blank stare and didn't know how to answer. My thought were: If they only knew the real me! That was when I began to wonder about the picture that I portray of myself online.
I think that the intention of many bloggers is to write about what works for them or blesses them. No one would want to read a post about how to keep a messy house, cook a crummy dinner, or fight with your spouse. There are plenty of people who share negative experiences on Facebook--we don't need it in the blogging world! But one thing I would never want to do is portray myself as different or better than I really am!
I could sit and bore you with a long list of things I stink at: keeping my house clean, balancing a checkbook, sweeping the acorns off of my porch, finishing almost any project that I start, keeping my mouth shut, blah, blah, blah....but you probably aren't interested in my faults. All one would need is to come over to my house unannounced to find toys all over the floor, books stacked on the table, a sink full of dishes, and a yard full of bikes and toys.
And it's not that I find cleaning unimportant. It's just that I am real....not perfect. And I have come to terms with that. Hopefully I have never portrayed myself as someone who is "all together." That would be a lie. But I do love to write about what God is doing in my life. I guess you can say that it is my way of testifying to the goodness of my Savior! If He can see purpose and value in a life like mine......then He sees it in you too.
No, I won't start snapping pictures of my laundry piles....don't worry. But I will be real with you. If you ask me what I am struggling with today, I will tell you. That's where true relationship begins.