Sunday, March 21, 2010
Redefining the "norm"
My experience as a child in schools was not the most comfortable in the world. I had many hardships that I still think about from time to time. I had a hard time separating my "social" role as a student from my "learning" role as a student. For me the social part was much more important. I look back on that now with much regret, because I know I missed out on a lot of learning! Obviously, I cannot change the past, so I am just picking up on the learning process where I left off. That is the great thing about home education. Subjects like history that I either ignored, or never had, are very interesting to me as an adult. I truly enjoy learning with my kids.
One of the things that I hear frequently is that we need to strive, as home school families to appear "normal." I just laughed out loud when I typed that...LOL Normal is basically a matter of opinion. We are not striving to meet culture at the "norms." As a matter of fact, if normal was the goal of my life, I would have sunk into a major depression long ago!! So I strive to seek only what God expects of me. Sometimes I fail. Sometimes I worry too much about what others think of me. I am not perfect. But, if I could just instill in my kids that their significance comes from being a child of God, rather than what others think about them, I will consider my job as a Mom successful. If I can shake the "self-esteem" monster myself, and rather focus solely on my relationship with my Savior, then I will have considered my life a success. Fortunately, God hasn't ever expected perfection!
"I know some day I will be free, the weight of sin shall be released, but for now He covers me. And though the trials never end, I've learned to take them as my friend, for each day He covers me..." Steve Camp